Hey all,
Sorry I haven't been posting much recently. There has been a little down time, now that so many applications have been sent out and the classes that I was teaching have ended for the term. It's weird to not be super crazy busy all the time. I have been feeling, recently, that Corvallis is to small to give me all of the possible opportunities that I hope to have and so I will be looking at possibly relocating should the opportunity present itself. I have some great things going here in Corvallis, and I will continue to do them if at all possible but if things don't start speeding up in the opportunities (especially paid ones) area, I think it would be best to finally move on and get out of this limbo that I so often feel like I am in. I've compared it to purgatory before and that is how it feels now. Like I am waiting for my life to really start so that I can accomplish all the crazy goals I have for myself in the long run. I've been waiting to get that push from the world or powers that be that says where to go or what to set my sights on for the present and it hasn't done that in a "kick in the butt" kind of way that I had first expected. I have however, been getting some subtle signs. A shift in the amount of work I am getting, in addition to the fact that my friend base has essentially all moved out and on from Corvallis, as well as the fact that I have been a runner up or in the top contending pool for several career positions but have not been chosen, suggest to me, not to quit, but that maybe it is time for me to move on and keep trucking somewhere else. We shall see what presents itself in the next few months though.
If I do leave I will miss the kids I teach and the dusty smells of costumes down at the Majestic Theater, it just doesn't make sense to stay if there is no chance of moving anywhere with my career this way.
Thank you to those special few people who have been so supportive of all the aspects of my life. The people who keep in touch even though you are scattered states and states away are so special to me and remain often times my closest friends. And thanks also to my boyfriend Connor, who is undaunted by any ridiculous task I may have for him, from lifting huge boxes and heavy bags, to wiping tables, to trying on high heels to see if they will fit the fellow that I am supposed to costume in drag. For being supportive of my dreams, encouraging of my goals, keeping me focused in, and being so certain when I am not. Thanks :)
Jess
Sorry I haven't been posting much recently. There has been a little down time, now that so many applications have been sent out and the classes that I was teaching have ended for the term. It's weird to not be super crazy busy all the time. I have been feeling, recently, that Corvallis is to small to give me all of the possible opportunities that I hope to have and so I will be looking at possibly relocating should the opportunity present itself. I have some great things going here in Corvallis, and I will continue to do them if at all possible but if things don't start speeding up in the opportunities (especially paid ones) area, I think it would be best to finally move on and get out of this limbo that I so often feel like I am in. I've compared it to purgatory before and that is how it feels now. Like I am waiting for my life to really start so that I can accomplish all the crazy goals I have for myself in the long run. I've been waiting to get that push from the world or powers that be that says where to go or what to set my sights on for the present and it hasn't done that in a "kick in the butt" kind of way that I had first expected. I have however, been getting some subtle signs. A shift in the amount of work I am getting, in addition to the fact that my friend base has essentially all moved out and on from Corvallis, as well as the fact that I have been a runner up or in the top contending pool for several career positions but have not been chosen, suggest to me, not to quit, but that maybe it is time for me to move on and keep trucking somewhere else. We shall see what presents itself in the next few months though.
If I do leave I will miss the kids I teach and the dusty smells of costumes down at the Majestic Theater, it just doesn't make sense to stay if there is no chance of moving anywhere with my career this way.
Thank you to those special few people who have been so supportive of all the aspects of my life. The people who keep in touch even though you are scattered states and states away are so special to me and remain often times my closest friends. And thanks also to my boyfriend Connor, who is undaunted by any ridiculous task I may have for him, from lifting huge boxes and heavy bags, to wiping tables, to trying on high heels to see if they will fit the fellow that I am supposed to costume in drag. For being supportive of my dreams, encouraging of my goals, keeping me focused in, and being so certain when I am not. Thanks :)
Jess
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